Date: Thu, 28 Feb 2002 23:16:02 -0800 (PST) From: JESS Lavey Subject: OUT OF DARKNESS TO LIGHT-TESTIMONY To: pstarfill@... OUT OF DARKNESS TO LIGHT I was born December 24,1968 in the Mother church of satan in east Berlin,Germany.I was born for the purpose of leadership in the church of satan.To take my fathers place when he passed on.My fathers goal was to create the perfect child to take this leadership roll.Much to my fathers surprise I turned out very different to what he exspected.So he spent his years very angery because he could not break my will a different path than his. I did not like what I saw in the church of satan. When I was five years old,I was sent to catholic Mil- itary Academy when my uncle through the courts had gotton custody of me.He was my mother's brother and hated by both of my parents.He filed for me and my sister to be removed.My uncle was unaware of the pro- blems I had untill the school told him.I did not spe- ak at all.I was diagnosed as autisic.The school did not feel I would make it in their program and I would have to be moved to a school that handled kids like me,or sent home.However,"there was a nun by the name of sis- ter Marian who begged the school to let me stay.She pleated with them for hours to let her work with me.For some reason she saw there was hope where they did not. She had a very unsueal strong relationship with God.She had very hard road ahead of her and people that did not believe this would work at all.But some how she got them to give her the chance.I came from a very abuseive home that above all was not normel.I was very untouch- able because of the abject fear added deep wounds to my spirit.I had been abuse both,physically and mentally by both parents who lived for satanism.Medically I was beyond hope,beyond the point of return.Even those sis-ter Marian knew the facts she had the hope of the Lord instilled in her heart.She worked with me day and night for a year before I began to come out of my world.Her love and hard work in Christ,paid off.Even those it was still a long road ahead,the first part of the battle was won.Her hard work began to take effect in my life by the time I was ten years of age.You would not even have guessed I was without hope for a normel life.She gained the respect of lot of people as they watched the change.I was said to be a very strong willed child.That alone but fear in my fathers heart.Sister Marian con- tinued to work with me for years.There were times I was still abused when I went home,but for some reason I did not let it stop me from moving ahead.I suffered a lot of abuse that is to graphic to put in this story I was ten when I became curious as to why my father--- Anton S. Lavey,hated God so much.I came across an add in the newspaper which offered a Bible study course through the mail.So I sent for it and kept what I was doing top secret for years.Slowly,"This interest became more than mere curiosity.It began to have an effect on me as I turned 14 years old.I had completed high school and been admited to my first year of college and I was going through alot of changes.I had decided to visit churchs,but when I finally asked how to come Christ and they found out who I was,I would only get "wheel-a-deal-salvation trips".I gave up for a time,but things became worse.There was a battle with demons,night after night,the torment was heavy and taking my health down.And I also had gotton to the poi- nt of considering suicide.My father was also putting the pressure on me to be apart of the church.Yet I was drawn to the side of Christ.I was even afraid to sleep at night for fear of the battle with satan.My father told me in no way I ever could be a christian because of the seal of the church of satan that was on me could never be broken.Knowing that, there was little hope left in my heart to ever be free of that.My last week in military school,I decided to join some friends on the beach.They were partying for the weekend as they always did.As I was with them,my heart did not feel a part of what they were doing.My heart was heavy with battle inside.So I left and went back to the dorms. while I was walking I saw card on the ground which read...Vineyard Christian Fellowship".I leaned my surf- board up against the phone booth and called.This was my last call for help.I was so afriad to tell the pastor my name.He told me it did not matter what my name was.He only wanted to help.He came down in the dead of the night in this old beat up stationwagon and picked me up and took me to his elders house and they both prayed over me through the night and morning.The deliverance was very long and a awful battle.I was a new person in the Lord when it was over.I was greatful He place no importance as to who I was,He was only concern about doing the job the Lord had put before Him.He was a very caring man of God.Pastor Steve Cook worked with me for five years in counseling and bring me up in Christ.As I look back I can see where God has put many of his people in my life to help me every step of the way.And I have learned a lot from my many diff- erent stages of walk with Christ.And the Lord has given me a well rounded education.I don't regret all that I have been through because it is all use to help others for the glory of God.After being with the vineyard for five years the pastor decide to close the church and move to Northren California.I had become so close to him that I took my eyes off of Christ.I grew angry and left to go live with my father,and that open the doors to more deadly warfare.There is a lession in this;We must not open the doors for satan to come back in because it is ten times worse than before, in dealing with demons.Like so many people I did not have a good understanding of that.I began to struggle with thoughts of the same thing as before when I was first delivered. sucide was the first to come back and this time I tryed to do it.I almost died.The warfare with satan became bigger and harder.I was trying to live on both sides of the fence.I had no clear understanding of what It met to give my entire life to Christ.Later I learned that I had only given a part of my self to Him and that is why I had not gotten past a lot of the problems that kept coming back.I also had to learn to keep the doors closed.I kept opening door and never keeping the harm- full things out that were of sin.The Lord put another man in my life,scott David.While living at home I tried to please my father by becoming active in leader- ship in his church of satan and than going to a christ-ian church at the same time.Mattew 6:24,You can not serve two masters at one time.I was so blind to what I was doing.Thinking I could live on both sides of the fence,the torment and the night battles with demons became worse than before.Now I was back where I started all over again.And I did not understand why.I tried cou- nseling,it did not help.I went from peacher to peacher, trying to find deliverance all over again.that did not work.Because God knew unless I had a clear understand- ing of what I was doing wrong first before He would help me again with deliverance.That's where He sent scott in to my life to help me with all that.I had to be willing to give my entire self to Christ.I was ask- ing for help to relieve the pain,but I would open the doors by going back to pulling satan's stuff in to my life again that was of sin.Not dealing with what really needed to change.I would not listen either to others who tryed to tell me.So my time was spent on satans merry-go-round.My heart had to be willing to give my whole self to Christ and denounce everything evil and get reid of all symbols that where of satan or occult stuff.And all things of the world,before christ could really mold me into a strong christian,I had to stand up and keep the doors closed to satan and his cohorts.I became so dependent on man to help me I would call on them first rather than Christ.I was not reading the word of God or dealing with the problem of my self."The Lord said ok",I'm sending someone in to your life once again to help you get on the right path and He did.He brought me back to the Lord and help me see my foolish ways.He was very hard on me,But Christ being the Father He is Knows what we need.Christ used Scott in a mighty way to get through to me because Chr- ist Jesus was trying,but I was not listing.The Lord has many ways to get our attention when needed.I feared breaking up with my father,But I had to make a choice. I could no longer be in the house of satan.Scott and his wife provied a way for me to leave.I waited until my father went out of town.Than I packed everything and moved out.I had made many trips for the past two days.On my next to the last trip,a friend of my fathers saw me packing.He notified my father who flew back home when he heared I was leaving.On my final trip,as I was loading my truck,He drove up to eatate with another high priest who was driving the car.My father jumped out of the car and grabbed me and threw me to the ground yelling angery words at me while useing a whip on me at the same time.All od a sudden his gun fell from his coat pocket to the ground and I guikly rolled over and picked it up and began shooting the tires out on His vehicle.I got up and ran to my truck and drove away leaving him standing there yelling.I had forgotten I still had the gun.I was covered with whip marks a long with blood all over me,with my clothes ripped.I was driving doen the canyon road while the police were racing up the road to my fathers house.I just kept going.In the mean time I had put the gun on the shelf behind me in the truck.I was now 35 miles down the road when I came to a small beach front town,called seal beach.I saw a phone booth and decided to stop and call scott to let him know what happen.I was badly cut up and pretty shaken by what took place.I knew if my father found me He would kill me.As i was talking with scott on the phone,suddenly I was surounded with police cars and police yelling at me.Here I was all cut up, blood all over me with a German Luger in the truck fully loaded and in plain view,sitting on the storage- box shelf behind the drivers side.Little did I know that while I was useing the phone,there was a robbery going on down the street and the robber had busted the glass out of the store.In the mean time scott was fight ing with the police Dept.over the phone.I did not yet know about the robbery.I thought I was being stoped be-cause of my father sent them.They searched the truck as I watched,I though for sure I was toast.I thought sure they would see the gun.They looked right over it. Everyone knows the police don't miss a thing while searching.I knew than that God's hand of protection was over me for sure.I also feared I would be framed for something I did not do,knowing the police in that area. They found a witness who Identified me as not the rob-ber.Thank God the wittness was truthful.The police than tryed to find out what happen to me and I would not tell them.I was very glad that night was over.It was new years eve of 1989.From that time on I became stro-nger in Christ Jesus.After Scott and his wife left for over seas,The Lord called me to the ministry,but first BiBle school.I maintain two minstries--Sword of the spirit Min. in Neveda and Lavey's min. in southren Ca. The Lord used me in so many ways to reach kids mixted up in the occults.What touched my heart is to see how these lifes I had touched for the Lord have grown stronger in Christ.Looking back over my life from the beginning to the present,I know only God can give hope to a life that has none.Only God can heal the wounds and make us whole and sound of mind.I had no hope of making it even through my childhood.Looking at all the healing He has done and the different people He has use to help me and guild me through the years,only God could have had his hand in it all.Of course this story only touchs very little of what has happen from beganing to now.Sometimes we fail to see what God really does for us as our father.When I made the simple choice to give my entire self to him my life be came stronger in Him.Life still get's hard sometimes,but with him first in my life I'm able to withstand the hardships with out falling apart or going back to the old ways.I now can stand as a warrior withstand the fiery darts satan throws my way from time to time.I know for a fact that God's protection is greater than any thing that the world could offer.He has a reason for every thing we go through and a purpose for our life.all those sometimes we don't see the reason at first we will laster as we look back on every thing we have gone through and if you look hard enough you will see God's hand in it every time.he truely takes care of every need we have.He has proven that over and over again in my life.He has also proven his love as a father,even when I did not deserve it.My service to him could never repay all of what he has done for me through out my life.He has been their for me both in my times of deepst sorrow and in times of joy.Remember to "STAND,FIGHT AND DELIVER IN CHRIST." 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