Yes Suzanne, You have to use the weapons of your warfare now...really and truely. Look it up again wont you? 2 Corinthians 10:4,5 They are strong weapons and God gives you victory be assured...1Cor 15:57. 2Cor 2:14; We overcome the world....1John 5:4...and we rest in Him. Hebrews 4. These are our promises that we must get wrapped up in in order to survive. The rest is for the world not us. We wrestle against powers of evil Ephesians 6:10 onwards. We win if we believe in what I am saying here...Luke 10:19. What Jesus said of course. But this very part of what Jesus said. We have weapons that defeat satan but we must use them. It does not happen automatically. 2Peter 5:7 cast your cares on him and dont receive them back Suzanne. Dont receieve them back...they are casted on HIm FullShot@... wrote: Thank you, Pastor Phil. I know God loves me - I am just on this rollercoaster of emotions. Sometime I'm up and sometimes I'm down (mostly down) but I am trying to focus on His word and prayer. I am asking Him to reveal to me how I can let go of this and give it to Him and not take it back. That's been a real struggle - my mind won't let go of it. Its like "well, if I had just done this . . ." or "I hadn't done that . . ." God has told me to let go of it and trust Him and He will work every thing out but it is so difficult to do. I am still praying for my marriage and my husband's assured salvation but I want to be able to trust God completely and not worry about it or think about it. Thank for your encouraging words and your prayers. God bless you! Love in Christ, Suzanne. Pastorphil http://www.faithministries.org.uk/ "All Things are Possible, Only Believe!" Mark 9:23 --------------------------------- With Yahoo! Mail you can get a bigger mailbox -- choose a size that fits your needs